i hate cancer

I hate feeling so hopeless. I hate seeing him hurting. I hate the feeling of his mother's impending death. I hate that he had to hold her head up at the hospital today for 2 hours. I hate that she is in so much pain. I hate that in a few weeks she will be totally paralyzed by the cancer that is wrapping itself around her vertebrae. I hate the the only option is to sit and wait for the cancer to kill her, or to spend thousands of dollars to simply slow it down. I hate that either way her time is very limited. I hate that I am so afraid.