I'm beginning to understand...

A small incident that occurred last night brought something about my personality into focus. I was never taught unconditional forgiveness. I see my parents guilt trip me, and I see their parents guilt trip them. Its this sick cycle that I am determined to break. But I have to start first with forgiving myself. That will be one of the hardest things I've ever done in my life. It is time to truly practice what I preach. Every sin is, indeed, forgivable and no one is too wrong to accept that forgiveness that was given to us at such a high price. Easier said than done.

I feel like, deep down, I have to take ultimate responsibility for what happened to me, for two wasted years of my life. And now I am getting what I deserve for the poor decisions I've made. I know, as a Christian this simply is not true but its so hard to let go of the guilt.