its B's birthday!!!

airplane noises

arthur is running around the house holding blitz making airplane landing and taking-off noises. whoooo....blitz just flew by me! pretty much the cutest thing ever. just hope he knows how to land him!

raising kane

i hung out with this girl tonight. she was super cool. i bought her cd...cause i am super cool too.

mind over matter

i know it is supposed to be painless. but after 55min of this machine rotating around my neck, and having to remain perfectly still ("no coughing, swallowing, or talking") i was a little freaked out.

what a pill

i took the radioactive pill today...i'll have the cat scan tommorow.

it was a really big pill by the way.

bored

this is what happens when all i have is a digital camera and picasa with which to amuse myself

the prognosis

the doctor called me this afternoon to tell me that they found two cysts on my thyroid gland. i have to go in monday for a biopsy to see if they are malignant. ick.

The Dairy

theirs was the last dairy under family operation in guadalupe county

2 generations
the price has gone up since we first started dating...hmmm
those are the cow barns on either side
afternoon shadows

Arthur's Family Fun & A Cinderella Story

this has pretty much been one of the saddest weeks of my life. yes...i've been depressed before. yes...i've been sad before. but i've never felt despair and grief to the extent that i've felt it in the past week. i had planned to go out with my childhood friend, annemarie, tonight while arthur was with his family preparing for his mother's burial tommorow. i was really really looking foward to seeing her. she is always a breath of fresh air to me... she is so alive. we had a date planned- she was gonna pick up at 6:30, take me out to dinner and the rest was a suprise. then around noon she called me with some bad news...she was sick. sick sick sick. the kinda sick where she couldn't leave the bathroom and "i'll leave the rest of the details up for your imagination" kinda sick. man, i was pretty disapointed. i really miss that girl sometimes. it's been almost 7 mths since the last time i've seen her. we've been friends since 7th grade and we go through our ups and downs together but she really is that friend that i can call no matter what. she is the first person i called crying to talk about arthur's mom. she knows me better than almost everyone. she will probably be my future maid-of-honor. but i love her because of her loyalty and her heart.

so as i'm laying in bed, snuggled up with blitz and a jane austin book i get a text message to look on my front poarch. On the top step is a small package wrapped in yellow ribbon. Inside are 2 DVDs, Arthur's Family Fun & A Cinderella Story (Starring Hillary Duff). The names "Arthur" and "Hillary" on each package are underlined. Attached with curly ribbon is a card that says "Watch these silly movies together and remember how strong you two are together- Love Annemarie".

This is why I love this girl. Somehow, after all these years and all the distance between us she still knows just what to do to make me smile.

Wise Aesop

The North Wind boasted of great strength. The Sun argued that there was great power in gentleness. "We shall have a contest," said the Sun. Far below, a man traveled a winding road. He was wearing a warm winter coat. "As a test of strength," said the Sun, "Let us see which of us can take the coat off of that man."

"It will be quite simple for me to force him to remove his coat," bragged the Wind. The Wind blew so hard, the birds clung to the trees. The world was filled with dust and leaves. But the harder the wind blew down the road, the tighter the shivering man clung to his coat.

Then, the Sun came out from behind a cloud. Sun warmed the air and the frosty ground. The man on the road unbuttoned his coat. The sun grew slowly brighter and brighter. Soon the man felt so hot, he took off his coat and sat down in a shady spot.

"How did you do that?" said the Wind. "It was easy," said the Sun, "I lit the day. Through gentleness I got my way."

when it rains it pours right?

my throat has been uncomfortably swollen (not painful, just uncomfortable) for 6 mths now. i went to the on-campus doctor 3 mths ago and they told me it was probably allergies. i had some left over allegra from the last time i was sick and the dr told me to take it and it should get better. it didn't. in the last few weeks my throat was getting to the point where it was just to uncomfortable to ignore anymore.

i went to the dr today and he looked concerned when i told him my symptoms. but he said he didn't want to try to diagnose anything until he knew for sure. i'm getting a thyroid ultrasound tomorrow along with extensive blood tests.

and i have to miss work which means less money on the pay check... thats all i'm worried about at this point. sorta...

there is a time for everything

we love you. your legacy lives on.

There is an appointed time for everything.
And there is a time for every event under heaven.
A time to give birth, and a time to die;...
A time to tear down, and a time to build up.
A time to weep, and a time to laugh;
A time to mourn, and a time to dance.
A time to throw stones, and a time to gather stones;
A time to embrace, and a time to shun embracing.
A time to search, and a time to give up as lost;
A time to keep, and a time to throw away.
A time to tear apart, and a time to sew together;
A time to be silent, and a time to speak.
A time to love, and a time to hate;

Ecclesiastes 3:1-7

so this is the new year

So this is the new year and i don't feel any different.

The clanking of crystal, explosions off in the distance in the distance.

So this is the new year and I have no resolutions.

For self assigned penance, for problems with easy solutions.

So everybody put your best suit or dress on.

Let's make believe that we are wealthy for just this once.

Lighting firecrackers off on the front lawn.

As thirty dialogues bleed into one.

I wish the world was flat like the old days.

Then i could travel just by folding a map.

No more airplanes, or speedtrains, or freeways.

There'd be no distance that can hold us back.

There'd be no distance that can hold us back.