its never to late

this is a conversation between me and my bestfriend.

PaulSP6: oh... jenn (his ex-girlfriend from hs) facebooked me. i kind of felt weird about it
me: you shouldn't
PaulSP6: i guess
PaulSP6: i just feel the need to apologize :-)
me: to her???
PaulSP6: yea.... i'm trying this new thing... where i apologize for things :-)
me: i don't get it
PaulSP6: i figure for me to start over... which i basically what i did moving to chicago. i should start by getting things off my conscious
me: what's on your conscience about her? that was so long ago anyway
PaulSP6: i guess. i just feel bad about adding to all the crap she was going through
me: yes...that wasn't good...but its all water under the bridge
me: ok...so where is my applogy?
PaulSP6: um...
PaulSP6: should i be sorry for something?
me: lol...no...but i liked making you squirm for just a little bit
PaulSP6: i didn't squirm
PaulSP6: i knew you were kidding
me: jerk...whatever...lol
PaulSP6: oh... i got one. i'm sorry i was gone when you were having a tough time in austin. i should have been there
me: are you really sorry? or are you just saying that?
PaulSP6: i'm really sorry.
PaulSP6: i wanted to be there
PaulSP6: i really did
me: well thank you. i don't need to forgive you though. i never was really upset at you about that.
PaulSP6: yea. i know. i just didn't realize how unhappy you were in austin till i got back from china (he spent 9 mths studying abroad)
PaulSP6: or maybe even a semester after that
me: really?
PaulSP6: yea. we didn't really get a chance to communicate too much when i was gone and we were both busy when i came back.
me: yeah...but even then...i guess i really wouldn't have talked to you about it that much anyway
PaulSP6: true
PaulSP6: ok. i'll let you get back to studying...i got to get some sleep. i didn't get into denver till 430 this morning
me: dang...well...gnight
PaulSP6: night kiddo

we have this minimalistic kind of friendship. we share this bond that we don't talk about. we tease about how much we drive each other crazy but in reality i would do just about anything for him, as i know he would do for me. we don't have to talk about how much we care for each other, that would be just plain weird anyway, but we know its there. i love him like a brother. but i'll never tell him that.